I've figured out my courses for first semester, seems pretty good, but I'm failing at everything else. I promised Tallie I'd comment, and I didn't, I told myself I'd spend free time studying so I can finally get my L, but free time is non existent, I wanted to finish my Encounters chapter and start a new SP one, but again with the free time. I wanted to go to bed at a reasonable time, but it's now 11:30 and I need a shower still.
I have so much to do, I can't even remember it all. I need to get organized, and stay that way.
I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you guys with my fail-ness.
Here is my personality guys. I enjoy internet tests, even when they paralyze me with the fear of being insane.
What is with the low confidence though? I seriously need to fix that.
So, guys. Sorry to tell you this, but I'm insane. Insane in the membrane. It's proven.
I took an internet test.
You know what that means?
It means I am: Impulsive, irresponsible, I disregard other's feelings, I get angry, depressed, and anxious for no reason, I have low self esteem, I hurt myself, I have unstable relationships, I'm overly dramatic, easily influenced, need to be the center of attention, I exaggerate, I feel the need for praise all the time, I take advantage of people, I feel important, I'm obsessed with fantasies, I have a lack of empathy, I lie to myself, and to others, I am obsessed with beauty, I'm afraid of rejection, I feel inept, I appear self-absorbed, I create fantasy lives, I can't make decisions, I feel helpless when I'm alone, I feel depressed and suicidal when rejected, I'm submissive, I get hurt by criticism and disapproval, I cannot meet the ordinary demands of life, and I become obsessive over things.
Is it just me, or is all of those symptoms just me. It's like my complete personality, wrapped up in psychosis.
Does that mean that who I appear to be, is just many mental disorders, not really me?
Or does that mean that I just have an insane personality?
I need help.
