OMG MY MOM PACKED ME BLUE RASPBERRY JELLO.

I'm eating it. It's so cool.

All the other kids stare cause they're jealous.

I'm in a corner. Like cool people, whuuut!!1!11!!!

I am sitting in a corner. Eating a sandwich, out of my wrapper, because I'd rather be thought a germaphobe than a gross hand-eater. And I feel really silly.

BUT THATS OKAY.

Because, I'm at university, and everyone else is either doing similar things, or sleeping.

I'm going to throw out my nasty, cheesy, drooly saranwrap now...

Haha, I wrote that, then I did it, then I felt like I loser again. I wish it wouldn't be weird for me to laugh out loud. It's okay when you're with other people, even if they're not talking about anything funny, but when you're by yourself, it's quite odd to laugh randomlike.

Yay! Tallie signed on msn so I'm not a freak.

Except she's failing at talking to me. YAY. She's responding again.

I think it will allllll be okay. I have FORTY FIVE minutes left to eat three cookies. But I'm quite thirsty.

I'm scoping around for a drink dispenser type thing, but there seems to be little liquids in my general area.

If this goes on for too long.... I'll have to use my razor sharp claws to rip open the sleeping people's bladders, to drink their urine, and finally satiate my thirst.

But that's just a last resort.

New Hair

Yeah, so I got it cut like... a month(?) ago. And I planned to post a pic, but then I didn't...

So I am today!

A pic of my new faaaahbulous hair. Except. Cough.


Aren't I loversly?

Lunch Break

I'm on my lunch break at work, and I was scouting around the internet, looking up the definition of crunk, and how to knit house elf hats, and then I found my way here!

And then I remembered my password. It's great, I now have access back to my blog, hurrah!

So, I chopped all my hair off scince the last time I've written here, and I'll have to post a pic later. I also got a tattoo of a naked man rubbing himself on my calf, but I won't put pictures of that up here, as it is inappropriate.

Joking.

I've also gotten a new job, so I'll be going to university full time with two jobs :) It makes me feel like a pro person, although I'll quit this one in a few monthes. Then just school and the pizzaria. Not as intense, but most likely easier.

My wisdom teeth are almost completly grown in on the bottom, but don't even seem to exist on the top. I need to see the dentist soon.

Oh yes, my life is so interesting. You guys missed mucho of me talking about all this important stuff while I had forgotten my password.

Okay, well I should get back to pretending to work. The slacking wont do itself (sadly).

Ahh, three hours before I get to make my escape. I think I shall stay on my lunch break for another twenty minutes, calling in a half hour break when it's really more like an hour. I'm such a rebel.

May karma bring you pleasent things.

Distress and faildom


I've figured out my courses for first semester, seems pretty good, but I'm failing at everything else. I promised Tallie I'd comment, and I didn't, I told myself I'd spend free time studying so I can finally get my L, but free time is non existent, I wanted to finish my Encounters chapter and start a new SP one, but again with the free time. I wanted to go to bed at a reasonable time, but it's now 11:30 and I need a shower still.
I have so much to do, I can't even remember it all. I need to get organized, and stay that way.

I'm sorry if I'm disappointing you guys with my fail-ness.

Better..

Here is my personality guys. I enjoy internet tests, even when they paralyze me with the fear of being insane.

What is with the low confidence though? I seriously  need to fix that.

Confidence 
LowHigh
4
Openness 
LowHigh
88
Extroversion 
LowHigh
54
Empathy 
LowHigh
100
Trust in others 
LowHigh
52
Agency 
LowHigh
2
Masculinity 
LowHigh
2
Femininity 
LowHigh
86
Spontaneity 
LowHigh
96
Attention to style 
LowHigh
96
Authoritarianism 
LowHigh
14
Earthy/Imaginative 
ImaginativeEarthy
2
Aesthetic/Functional 
FunctionalAesthetic
78




Crap.


So, guys. Sorry to tell you this, but I'm insane. Insane in the membrane. It's proven.
I took an internet test.

DisorderRatingInformation
Paranoid:Moderatemore info | forum
Schizoid:Lowmore info | forum
Schizotypal:Moderatemore info | forum
Antisocial:Highmore info | forum
Borderline:Very Highmore info | forum
Histrionic:Highmore info | forum
Narcissistic:Highmore info | forum
Avoidant:Very Highmore info | forum
Dependent:Highmore info | forum
Obsessive-Compulsive:Highmore info | forum

You know what that means?

It means I am: Impulsive, irresponsible, I disregard other's feelings, I get angry, depressed, and anxious for no reason, I have low self esteem, I hurt myself, I have unstable relationships, I'm overly dramatic, easily influenced, need to be the center of attention, I exaggerate, I feel the need for praise all the time, I take advantage of people, I feel important, I'm obsessed with fantasies, I have a lack of empathy, I lie to myself, and to others, I am obsessed with beauty, I'm afraid of rejection, I feel inept, I appear self-absorbed, I create fantasy lives, I can't make decisions, I feel helpless when I'm alone, I feel depressed and suicidal when rejected, I'm submissive, I get hurt by criticism and disapproval, I cannot meet the ordinary demands of life, and I become obsessive over things.

Is it just me, or is all of those symptoms just me. It's like my complete personality, wrapped up in psychosis.

Does that mean that who I appear to be, is just many mental disorders, not really me?

Or does that mean that I just have an insane personality?


I need help.